A Story For My Future

I turned around to see what the noise was about...
That was the last thing i thought of. I woke in a hospital ward.
I see needles poking my arms and a machine by the side, beeping, slowly.
The other side of the bed were flowers.Written on it, "Get well soon, From Elizabeth."

I tried to move a muscle but, nothing happened.
After a few minutes of trying, my hand move.
I didn't realize that a needle got loose and started hearing beepings.
Two nurses came running in, checking their medical logs and figuring out whats wrong,
and they realized that I was awake.
One of them ran out of the room and the other stayed by my side, saying,
"Its going to be okay."
I trusted her and in a few seconds later, I fainted.

I woke up and realized there were at least 7 people in the room,
staring straight at me.
I tried to speak, but i couldn't say a single word.
A doctor came rushing in saying, "Please clear the room"
He examined my chest and my eyes, and walked out.
He told those people that I am fine and I am still unstable.
Suddenly,
A girl about 23 years of age, came running towards me.
She hugged me and kissed me in the forehead.
In my mind, I was saying to myself, "Who is she?"
But its okay, I said to myself because,
It felt really comfortable.
Next thing I realized was that, I blacked out.

As I open my eyes, the lights were off. The sound of the beeping were still there.
I tried to think, why am I here? I myself brainstormed through everything.
Suddenly,
I had a flash back.
-I am walking at a place. As I walk down the stairs, I see myself in a picture with 2 strangers.I reached the kitchen seeing an old lady, saying, "Hello." I think that could be my mom. I just can recall her in my head-
And than I was interupted by the sound of the beeping.
I looked at the machine and the numbers were increasing and my heart pulses were getting faster.
The 2 same nurses came in running again. The same nurse hold my hand and said,
"Hold on!"
I tried to read her name tag. It was "P" something.
And i fainted.

My chest felt something cold, moving around.
I opened my eyes and it was the same doctor.
The 7 people were there again. The doctor whispered,
"His condition is getting into a critical state, and no more surprises."
Even though he was whispering i heard every word exactly. and he left.
My eyes went searching for the girl who hugged me before.
She wasn't there.
The lady in my flash back came to me and sat by the chair. She said,
"Do you remember me? Do you know who am I? I'm your mom."
In my mind i kept saying, "IS THIS TURE? Could it be? If she is, what am I doing here?"
A man in his early 30's tapped her shoulders showing her his palm, as a sign of stop.

The first word I said was,
"Can I have a cup of water?"
Without hesitation, a man quickly poured water for me.
As I drink, i asked,
"Why am I here? What happened to me?"
All 7 of them looked at each other and mumbled with one another.
The voice grew louder and louder. It made my head spin.
Out of the blue I shouted, " STOP! Tell me what happened? Please."
The girl that hugged me before came walking in the room.
Holding a white rose.
The lady stood up from the chair and let her sat.
She said,
"I'm Elizabeth."

My mind told my body to hold her and kiss her in the lips!
I tried but my body, was still 'away'.
Only with my right hand,
I touched her face. As I touched, I saw those beautiful eyes, sparkling.
And as I touched her lips,
I had a flash back again.
-I and Elizabeth were at a park. We walked and stopped at a see-saw. I pushed her and we were having fun. She used her legs to stop, and she stood up. She turned around, looking at me, she rushed to me and kissed me. I kissed her back. After that, we were holding hands, walking away from the park.-
And it just came to an end like that.

I told Elizabeth what I remembered. Her tears crawled down the cheeks and she hugged me.
I asked again, "What happened to me? What happened next?"
She said, "You don't really remember?"
She showed me her left hand, and I realized there was a ring on a hand.
I asked, "I, I asked you for your hand in marriage?"
She nodded and started crying.
She said, "I love you."
And i can't resist not saying it, I too said, "I love you."
She continued telling me that we continued on walking to her apartment.
She heard noised like footsteps.
But I told her that it was merely just a cat chasing a rat.
The sound of footsteps grew louder and louder.
I turned around to see what the noise was about and I got punched in the head with a gun.
The man threatened for her bag. She gave it. And he ran away.
Later than, I was rushed to the hospital.
She also told me than those people were my friends.

A few months later, Elizabeth and I got married.
Even though I have a scar on the back of my head,
That would be my prove of love to her,
That as long as I have this scar, I will love Elizabeth.
In the end,
We lived happily ever after.
-DoneAlone-

-AnotherStoryOfMine-

Because of Me

Don't judge as you see,
Because of me,
You guys made bad decisions,
Now and you pay by your actions.
-DoneAlone-

everything take it easy.
everything take it easy.

thats what i use to say all the time, whenever i have a problem.

I
REGRET

we should be planning ahead,
not wait ahead for planning.

i am having problems. with friends.
i am not even that important.
why do they even want me around?

I AM USELESS! PURELY USELESS..

my friends want me around for company.
my company will only enrage them in a very very hard manner of hatred.

Today,
going to school was like going to .... school.
Before exam= BORING~
After exam = STILL BORING~

Anyways.. i hate being me.

never want to be me.

but have to accept the truth that..

i am ..

still me.


-LingeringInHate-

Is There More To Life Than Me?

Life is not just this,
Its also a big BLISS,
but the "1" thing i will miss,
Is a kiss.
-DoneAlone-

wokay peeps.
i mean that in like 'people'
not ... well u get the draft.

will be going to some open houses for RAYA and DEEPAVALI,

gosh,
i just love Malaysia.
for this few reasons.
1.All kinda friends.(race,height,etc.)
2.Smokin HOT girls.(Not u)
3.All kinda smokin HOT girls.(not u either)
4.HOLIDAYS every month.
5.Weather Rocks.
6.A lot of places to go.
Last But Not Least.
7.there's ME.

okok.. u guys to..
and blogs are meant to be like a diary.
thats my opinion.
so the way i write my blog is like totally up to me.
yeah i'm talking bout u.

-HappyAndFewMore-

Speech-less

I am strange,
I admit that but i change,
but you cruelly,
didn't even try to see.
-DoneAlone_

-Speechless-

You Left Us Alone, Yes I Mean You.

In this time of the year,
You were always here,
Never far but near,
but today you didn't appear.
-DoneAlone-

Today went to school.
so fun. NOT!

A.T.K.H. today, u never come.
you F.F.K.
What a friend, The 3 of us waited for you.
sorry i wont lie, we didn't wait for you.

Next time, whatever happens, i , i mean we.
wont wait for you.

nahhhhhh... we so good fren.
sure wait d. (you owe us)

5 people i really think is my true friends(latest) -
1.Horng,Andrew,Ryan,Din (H.A.R.D)
2.Dan lain-lain (D.L.L.)

sorry.. cant judge, later people come find my house and burn it down,
especially the KLANG people : )

just joking!
you know i joking right?

-HappyForNowDLL-

Normal Simple Words.

Yesterday i was different,
Today absent,
Tomorrow day of judgment,
but never an infant.
-DoneAlone-

i tried my best.
but still its never enuf for you.
why you expect so much from an average student.

you were never around to help me or do anything.
punish me la.
i dont care, wont care.
is not like you can change me.

maybe you did.
but still.
pushing me over the edge.
is just OVER.i just wan t a normal simple student life,
thats all i wanted.

BUT, always a but.
i was scoring much better than my other friends.
i can say that i did my best IN MY WHOLE LIFE>

i am writing all this in my blog,
cause i know you will never view or ever SEE it in your whole life.

YOU never around.
always out.

saying i never try hard enough?
wan me get all A?
saying a few words like.

"good for you, at least you tried your best."
is it that hard to say those normal simple words?

-HurtByWords-

Sorry For the Things

Sorry for what happen,
I give you my full respect,
Dont worry its more than a cent,
Sad things come whenever you dont't expect.
-DoneAlone-

Today our principal, passed away.
i never thought i will say these words, but
i honor you.

i should have forgive you for the things you made me felt,
now its to late to apolagize.

i...i...i got nothing else to say,
sorry.

-SadAndSad-

I Have Laid My Pass At The Back

In the past I was alone,
didn't realize I was home,
We used to be together playing,
but you forgotten bout me and started swaying.
-DoneAlone-

To tell you the truth i really had a bad start in life.
in life as in, the past.

hmmm.. examples like, friendless,alone, but never sad over it.
because of it, i am who i am today.

I had friends who betrayed me with words and actions i never want to do to my friends.
but when that happen, i know they are and never will be my TRUE friends.

No worries, TODAY i am perfectly happy with friends i cant trade with money.
H.A.D. (names)

Thank You, for being my friends.
i know i am being abit CORNY
but
i just had to release that from my chest.

now i am happily fine.

-LostRejectedButFoundAndHappy-

Breathless, Senseless and Lifeless

I dont have to talk,
when you are so far away,
I dont have to walk,
to you, to make my day.
-DoneAlone-

Sick and tired of things which just makes me want to, want to....
urghhhhh...no words to express.
Because of things like those...i am a much different person.

i believe that i am like this because of NO aim and hope to go for.
me and my friends talk about this things.
and the soulution to this is...

GET A GIRL FRIEND!

but for me its kinda hard because i am like an unlikable guy.
what kind of an idiot will say yes to me?

but till i get closer to this particular "girl" i changed my attitude and started being a better person.
that changed after she finds out that i am into her.

That turn my life upside down for 1(one,satu,yi,unos) day.

but all i can say is that,
"she" took my breath away.
"she" gave me sense of living.
"she" told me the reason of life itself.

-BeenThereNeverDoneAny-