Walk

A Walk To Remember.

A story of an undying faith and love of two individuals towards each other.
I can honestly, watching it again from a whole new perspective did teach me some lessons.

1. Say ‘No’ to peer pressure.
2. Every girl is beautiful.
3. Miracles do come true.
4. Breaking promises ain’t that bad.
5. Last minute work does payoff.
6. Apologizing heals.
7. There are ways to learn new things.
8. A girl can change a guys’ life around.
9. Sacrifice is a form of love.
10. Girls are seductive in their ways.
11. Break away from what doesn’t make you better.
12. There’s always that one friend who’s there.
13. Handshakes are necessary in an awesome friendship.
14. Laughter helps break the ice.
15. Brutal honesty is the best way.
16. The truth isn’t easy accepted, but it takes time.
17. Learning to dance is required.
18. Supporting mothers do help.
19. Jealousy does exist between strangers and haters.
20. Girls pushes guys to the limit.
21. Have a to-do-list.
22. Finish the to-do-list.
23. Have someone help you finish it.
24. Never give up on teaching.
25. Lies can save a life.
26. Leukemia is a bitch.
27. There’s a fear of letting go.
28. Living life to its fullest.
29. Tattoo’s are cool, temporary ones.
30. Never judge someone for what they wear.
31. Girls have killer smiles.
32. Not expecting anything.
33. Ask the dad for permissions first.
34. You can’t outrun the police.
35. Have fine dining for a date.
36. Pay for everything.
37. Pretend everything’s alright to look strong.
38. Waiting for the girl to wake up.
39. Sleeping under the stars won’t be a bad idea.
40. I should totally join a musical.
41. Forget the lines, and just say, “You’re beautiful.”
42. Switchfoot is an awesome band.
43. Go the distance to find the answers.
44. Sometimes, it’s about being there, even if it’s 10seconds.
45. Find a book of quotes and read everyone.
46. Have faith in someone even if they don’t look like it.
47. In suffering comes compassion, in suffering look for hope.
48. Never giving up, even if I know it’s going to end.
49. Love isn’t easy, for both sides.
50. Death can’t separate love.

In that list, I’ve done some, failed some.
but definitely, learnt a lot from most.

Watching the same movie from a different perspective gives everything a new look.

Give it a try, what can you learn?

a kiss?

what does a kiss mean?
either a peck or making out itself.
"what IS a kiss?"

went and Google-d my questions. got all sorts of stuffs.
one of 'em said, that it was a way of showing affection.
or it could be, the transferring of hormones. wtf.
or just for the heck of it?

is there more of an answer to just the scientific and obvious?
is there no elaborated answer?

for me, 
-a kiss on the lips, signifies an openness and honesty in a relationship. that the partner allows the other to actually take a step closer into her life, physically and relationship-wise.
-making out, on the other hand, is more than just a feeling, but the action of embracing one another, in each other's arms. but rather being all comfortable and trustworthy enough to trust the partner not only with their lips, but body, too.

i don't really know why, am i thinking so much after watching a movie that i had watched over 5times, but only now just thinking bout it.
blame it on the nostalgia, blame it on the curiosity, blame it on me.
wtfcares.

changing a place to put my thoughts,
rather than sharing it to 796,
i will share it to 53 instead.

but what does it mean to you?

Why was I how I was?

Why was I how I was?

I didn’t know what that ‘umph’ feeling was.
Ruined a night, ruined a day.

Got me thinking, whether it was a happy or sad thing.
After a day of thinking,
it was neither. Or maybe it was both.

If it was sad, I guess it’s ‘cause of the memories came flashing back and all,
Nostalgic… that would be my defense.

If it was a happy one, it’s cause..
I got to see you? After such a long time. Almost a month, no?

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I’ve put in, way too much connotation in the Moon.
and everytime as I gaze at it, I would think of you.

The Moon became something that I really adored and looked forward too, because,
our month-vesary would always have a full Moon.

A friend asked me, “Why does everyone look at the moon as if it’s something beautiful and round and perfect? If you look closely, it has holes and it’s not really white. “
“Like every other human, we ain’t perfect with our flaws and ugliness. But deep down we’re beautiful.” I replied.

The thing with accepting someone else’s differences, it takes a lot. When I say a lot I mean A LOT.
We accept the ones we love eventhough they’ve hurt us over and over again.
May it be, family, or even friends.
but the funny thing is, we didn’t let go.
of the feelings, memories, hopes and dreams.

Maybe we’re just fools or dreamers hoping the best that would come out of the situation. Not accepting reality and fact.
but living off the fictional side of the story, in our hearts.

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Someone who would take a chance on me, and give me a try.
but I’ve build this defense mechanism in me,
to not get hurt.

Pushing away the possibilities of a heartbreak, whenever it is.

That’s why I wouldn’t take the chance.
Wouldn’t take step of courage,
to not leap forward, but rather staying where I am now.

I wouldn’t want to hurt you, and you me.
But..
Que Sera Sera. Whatever will be, will be. 

A day away,
from that day,

which made so much difference,

which I try not to reference.

Rhythm & Melody

Do you have that one thing that doesn't leave you?

That will always be there for you no matter what.

Well. I have.

Even in my darkest times, in my happiest of times too.

I realized that I never really appreciate it till I was left with it for a long time.

But the funny thing about is, it could make me sad or happy. 

Even when I’m all high up in the sky, but then suddenly, BAM, I just feel that sudden cold breeze.

Well, however ironic or hypocritical it could be, I would say I love it.

It is music.

For a long time now, I would always have my earplugs with me, whenever I go out.

Cause I needed a sense that, ‘someone/something will always be there for me, whenever I need them.’

It sounds foolish now, thinking and talking about how I treat music. But that’s how I see it.

I realize that nothing and no one can be there for me all the fucking time. 

My friends, they have their own life and their own group of friends too,

My close friends, are too busy with ‘assignments’ and their social life,

and I’m left all alone.

But I don’t mind being alone, cause I can stand being alone. 

I was alone when I was 8, and I can be alone if I want to now.

but,

I’m blessed, with awesome people surrounding me.

“Being alone, doesn't necessary mean you’re lonely,

Being lonely, doesn't necessary means you’re alone”

We can hide behind our walls of failures, dreams, hopes or expectations,

we wait for people to come break them down,

sometimes, some people can,

but, some cant.

For the wall we set up, is just way too high, and it’s unachievable.

“We sometimes look and long for somethings that we want,

rather than the things that we need, and what we always needed, was in-front of us the whole time.”

I always take long walks, from uni to my car or even to college.

It’s because I take that time to be alone, and be with something that I love,

music.

It has always been there for me.

and I ask you,

to find something you need, rather than want.

“I make it look easy.”

2nd Oct

Happy Birthday. hmm. :)

Kimjongilia

Is a documentary about North Korean citizens that found their way out of that country to find a new life.

What all of them had in common was that they were trying to escape.
Escape from the pain of being there and the fear of being beaten or worst, killed.

As the survivors tell their story, it’s very obvious that life there was hell and still is. But they really need to get away from all of that fake so called love of their leader Kim Jong Il.

There’s this part of the interview, where his death was taken so seriously, because the citizens there were thought that he was some kind of ‘god’.

I quote a survivor, “How Christians say grace to God before they eat, we say grace to Kim Jong Il.”

People thought that it would be the end of the world when he passed, because their ‘god’ has somehow died and no one was there to protect them. But a man, realize how stupid that was and made his decision to leave North Korea.

That got me thinking, do we stay in the lies of others?
Do we live in their mistakes?
Is there no way out?

I believe in “decisions”.

The decisions we make will always do good for us in the future or now, whatever it is. It’s because we choose whatever happens to us.
Even when we get into an accident, it’s the mistake of another that causes our sadness and pain, but we make the decision to get out of the ridiculous state of mind.

Pain and suffering comes after the storm, so that when it comes again, we would be more than ready to get hit again.

Life itself is a very ironic thing. Since we’re young, we’re always thought that there would be a happy ending at every “The End.”
and when we come to a place in our lives and it’s not how we imagine it to be, where all the smiles and laughter are replaced by tears and pain. I was reminded that, “If it’s not a happy ending, it’s not the end.”

Whatever is thrown at my face, I will take it head on with all my might to know that there’s always something bigger and better in the future. Because I know that whatever happens now is a gift from God, because I’m still alive and well.

They say, “It’s the journey that matters.”
no matter how my life ends, the main thing is how I got there.

This year in my life, I’ve met real awesome people.
Friends that I wish I never replace, experiences and memories I wish never be forgotten.

September ended, time to wake up. (: