Comfortable Silence

Is it better to express or to retain your feelings.?

If you tell, you're admitting.
If you don't, you're lying to yourself.
But when you don't mention anything about that feeling, it could just slip away like a paper under a door.

I guess, it depends on the situation. As it is kinda tricky and subjective.
It might work for me, but not for you.

I have this silent feeling in me, that I will just tell only 'you' (whoever is reading this).

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I hate it when people go all, "Why do you have to relate everything back to her? I don't think your argument is valid through 'that'. Everrrryyyttthiiing is about her isn't it??"

And I'm like, "Dafaq!?"

The things Audrey did to my life.
1. I grew up. I became more matured as an adult. I know what to expect in a relationship and how to handle them.

Regardless of anything, 'we' had a relationship. And that counts.

2. The experience I shared with her was not only just memorable, but lessons in life.

I learned more about myself as I was with her. That I was this egoistic, prideful guy, and she changed me. To be a better man for myself, for her.

The hurt, the joy and her, taught that it's not all about me, but that significant other.

3. The real meaning of, 'Love'.

The only way to give up, is giving up.

You don't give excuses of distance, time, money and DEFINITELY NOT the lack of love.

You don't call it love, if it fades. If it does fade, ask yourself, "Is that your limit to love? That something so small and micro, like distance measures the size of your love?"

Imagine this, your significant other asks you, "How much do you love me?" and your reply would be, "Till Singapore. If I have to take a plane, I love you no more."

How RIDICULOUS does that sound!!?

In summary, I grew up more in a year, than 18years of my life because of this one girl.

That's why my life now, relates so much to her.

That's basically it. Just a silent feeling.

I'll be ready soon

My parents is forcing me to get a girlfriend.
I really don't know why they're being like this, all of a sudden.
and it's kinda annoying that they're forcing me.
I'll find one when I'm ready.
and I'm definitely not ready now.

I always wonder, "Why are you not ready Rhys?"

and I guess, it's because my heart still longs for her?
idk, maybe, maybe not~
but what I know for sure is, I'm not ready.

Don't really know when I'll be ready,
don't really want to put any deadline on it,
'cause there wont be a point.
I'll be ready, when I'm ready.

and I had a 30minutes+ Skype chat.
really, really enjoyed it.

Other than that,
I'm really filled with work from uni, grandma's birthday, reunions, and washing hair. LOOL