Saturday, December 8, 2012

A Wallflower

A 'wallflower' is someone who's on the sidelines of social events.
Well, not only just events but life, in general.

I just watched 'The Perks Of Being A Wallflower', and I've gotta say it's an amazing movie.

The storyline was simply beautiful, thee music played was great and somehow relatable.

In my own words, the movie is about a boy, Charlie who just started high school and has no friends. But he then meets friends that would change his freshmen year. It's a story of loneliness, friendship, acceptance, experiences, pasts, rejection, forgiveness and being infinite.


It's relatable because I myself know how it feels to be a wallflower. Just standing at the side and being push around.

The first few years in between of primary school and high school for me was horrible.
Not knowing what is wrong and right, what is accepted or not, was I good enough or not.
It was hard not knowing what I am, and what I was suppose to do. I guess that's why I somehow let other people push me around. Thought it was normal.

Not many know how it feels to really be on the sidelines sometimes. To be just discarded and left alone. And some that do, wouldn't wish the same for others.

I admit I changed. For better or worst, I changed. Took me sometime to really know how the system works.
To confirm to what's accepted, being the 'cool kids', pushing the 'wallflowers' along the way.
From the bottom of my heart, I apologize and I regret those things that I did. I was stupid, young, immature, friendless.
I had no one, and these guys picked me up and took me in, and I accepted everything they did.

I wish I could go back, and be there for people. Be there for those 'wallflowers'. Like how Charlie's friends were there for him, making him feel better.


I guess, what I'm trying to say is, I know how it feels to be a wallflower, and I be something I never had in the beginning, a friend.

And it's okay to be a wallflower because you can never fully be accepted, and somewhat remain in the sidelines. 
It's okay not to have a hero sometimes, just a sidekick would be enough. 


Welcome to the land of misfits twice.