Christmas Everyday.

Most of us have the wrong concept of Christmas. 

That it’s all about receiving, taking and themselves.

Well, they’re WRONG. Lol

Christmas is about giving, appreciating and blessing others.

I guess, most of us have forgotten or didn’t even know what Christmas was really about.

but I hope that, this Christmas we would grasp hold the right way of Christmas.

It comes once a year, but I hope that it would be part of us to be have this jolly Christmas spirit to give and think of others first. 

Don’t think of what we can get from someone, like the benefits, gifts or presents.

but think like, “Hey, what can I give to that someone?”

‘Cause sometimes, we think wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much that causes us to lose focus of what the main goal is.

The love we receive, is the love we should give.

There’s always love, it’s the matter of whether we feel the love.

So, be more sensitive to it. DON’T be a hard rock ass. LOL

Merry Christmas to you wherever you may be.

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Fact / Fiction

It’s not that I want to die young, it’s just that I don’t have this urge to die old.

It’s like the same how people say, “I want to quickly finish off studying and start working.”
For me, how would you know what it’s like to work? People hate what they do, and despise it every.single.second. 

I know not all jobs are like that, but only the business students tell me that. SO DONT TAKE BUSINESS. Lol

How would you know what it’s like to live old?
It may be painful to watch and experience the view of death of others.
or you might live a blessed life and not see one.
Who knows?
I’m young and free, and excited for life.

“When you came out, you were crying people were smiling, make sure when you go out, you’re smiling and people crying.” – John Futa.  

We forgot to appreciate what we have, rather we complain and compare.
What we have would never be merely enough, to what we imagined to get.

It’s a good thing to aspire for more, but why, when you have so much to appreciate now, you forget and look ahead?

I look at what I have and what I don’t.
I look at what I need and what I want.
I look at what I can and what I can’t.

I don’t have everything, but I would say more than enough.
God.Family.Friends.You.

 “You made it seem like we as your friends have failed to be your friend, and to make you not think that way.”

The fact is, you guys made life so much more worth it. Knowing y’all was my honor. And to be your friend was a blessing.

I didn’t want to say it, cause it sounded way to cheesy and unbelievable.

I take my words back for not fighting for my life. I will. I definitely will.
But like how I explained to a friend, the life I live wasn’t meant to be, till He came and rescued me.
And if He decides to take my life, he took my life.
He gives and He takes.

We wouldn’t know the entire wonders of the world, or the knowledge of the universe.
If one would know, he be God. 

To a certain age,
It's just simple math,
To be a young or old sage,
Not afraid of death.

Oh Oh Oh, Ho Ho Ho

Well, December is finally here.
Not exactly the end of the month yet, just slightly almost half, but lots has happened.

Actually… the things that happened, I can never ask for more.
I would call it an early Christmas gift or New Year’s present,
but it was, nice.

An acoustic guitar, rekindled friendship and refreshing moments of companionship.

I really couldn’t ask for more. After months of wishing and praying and sleepless nights thinking when will those come true, it all finally did.

After what was done, it felt like a HUGE rock was literally removed.
Heartbeat back to normal, sleep became more comfortable and mind cleared.

But all that made me wonder if I can really do things myself, or do I always need to wait for something to happen.
Yes, I did feel a ‘lil bit worthless and useless. But I was just thinking WAYYY too much.
So kids, don’t be like grandpa Rhys. LOL

Right now…
it just feels a ‘lil bit too quiet.

Friends away, family going off, home alone, idle phone, plan-less and whatever.

I need to find something productive to do now.
Maybe more like climbing hills and writing screenplays.
or I could just lay dead on my bed. Wth, no.

Anyways, Merry Christmas.

Last Christmas, I …

Grad3

Same place, same crowd, same atmosphere, same speakers, different person.

Loneliness hits you, when you least expect it to happen. That’s because the person on your right and left would suddenly just disappear and you’re left all alone. Nothing to do, but to give empty cheers to strangers on stage.

Knowing that everyone else has to have their moment, and it was time to live the moment, but just wasn’t my time.

I wouldn’t want to spoil or ruin anyone’s moment, so I left.

Everyone deserved a good and enjoyable time, and it would be an ass of me to ruin it by sending off bad aura.

Words from the Valedictorian and the program director both gave a wonderful and meaningful speech. One bout not just only winning the race, but finishing it with someone, helping them up when they fall. The other, that life might be short, and to live life to say, “I’ve had lived a good life, and not hurt anyone,” is the essence of life itself.

As lonely, as sentimental, as touched, as fun as it is,
I see that hobble. 

Dream/Sorry

I don’t know whether the dreams we dream are what our subconscious are thinking, cause I know for sure when I’m fully awake, I’m not.

Not to say I hate it, but I wasn’t completely loving it too, cause to a point, I knew it was all just a dream.

I’m not sure how I would judge it, be it bad or be it good, it did affect me.

and I’m sorry.

I didn’t know what to do, afraid that I might fall. So I just played it safe.
all about you. lol

Fragile

Today I was reminded of life itself.

That no matter how much we do and plan with it, it’s always fragile,
and today, I kinda have a grasp of the meaning of it.

Fragile, that it could break or be taken away, just like that.
Maybe it’s just me, but I always  hear, that “life is short.”

Today, I found out that a lecturer from my Pre-U course (CIMP), passed away due to some misunderstanding, which cost him his life. And he had no fault of any sort.

A friend of mine posted in FB saying,
“This picture really bring tears down my cheek... how can such an adventurous sporty and open minded person like him die so early? all he wants is to travel around the world and live the moment. I respect you sir you are really my inspiration. “

What he said was so true. He was just out on a holiday an out of a sudden, the next thing he knew was that he was fighting for his life. It really hurts to see an individual so outgoing and cool, to just come to an end like that.

I didn’t know Mr.Pelland personally, but from seeing the lives that he touched and the people he has changed, it truly gave me the impression that he IS a great man. Doing what he can and did what he wanted with an open heart and mind. I respect him as an individual that was able to truly help and change people.

And for that, he would truly be my definition of real ‘coolness’.

Another thing that strike me today, was the fact that my grandma has high blood pressure.
It might not seem like a huge issue, but if I actually think about it, I could have lost my grandma today as well.

She’s 78 but acting like she’s 60. And I’m happy to see that she is still as active as most grandmas out there. I ain’t dissing anyone’s grandma, but I bet you love them as much as I love mine. The thought of losing her, is really unbearable.

I was supposed to just drop something off today and be off. I had a long day myself, and wanted to take a rest from a long day, till I found out. And I wanted to stay as long as I can, to really enjoy her presence as if it was her last.

Life itself is really fragile.

Say what it’s needed, and I guess I have said what needs to be said.
In the end, it’s all said and done.

here.we.go.

Eyes Closed .

Little Tommy always kept his eyes shut. He pretended to never see what was happening to guard himself from the pain and heartache. It wasn’t his first time avoiding and pretending like things was just happening, but he fears that if he actually clicks or imagines that he does, the world he lived in would just fall and crumble. He never really dared to go further than the boundaries he made, cause he knows what would happen exactly when he does. Eventually, pain still find its ways to creep in.

Who are you talking to..