Just not how it used to be

I never really cared bout what people have to say,
especially if its about my language proficiency.

Till today, when she couldn't understand what I was trying to say.
Maybe it was her, being half deaf.
or me, not knowing my language.

For the first time, I felt useless, speech-wise.

Talking about growing up and empty conversations and whatnot,

that was how it used to be..

But whatever it is, I still love you grandma.

And it's almost a week since..

My fingers still itch to do what it longs to do,

but heck, you can live without it. Then I might as well learn to do the same.

I realized that, that is the only way I can start a conversation with you. Without being so friggin random.

My randomness is getting a wee bit annoying I guess.

My whole day would be empty and quiet,

and constantly checking my phone.

Silly me~

Not to say I don't love how things are going now, but I miss the days where txting used to be everything.

No idea how my face lit up after seeing that message. (:

the Coping and Adapting me

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