Did You?

Ever had a song, that when you listen to the lyrics, or find out what it means, you immediately click to it.

Like the melody and the lyrics, sync with one another.

It's not that you're addicted to it, or how the lyrics goes on a loop in your mind, 

but more of, "Hey, this is what I'm going through."
or, "This is exactly what I'm feeling."
or however it may be, hope you catch my drift. 

Well, there is this one song for me recently.
'I Won't Give Up', by Jason Mraz.

Right from the first line, till the last.
It might not be every line,
but I can definitely relate it to me.

The song can be for someone who's in a relationship, and one who isn't.
One would say,
"Whatever happens, good or bad, I won't give up."
The other would say,
"Whatever happened, through the good and bad, I won't give up."

Well, that's my take on the song.

To a friend that I might have judged way before I gave him time to show it, I'm sorry. I will support you through and through, but I will be brutally honest about everything. If I offend you, you deserve it. Okay, that sounded bad, lol. But yeah, please try all your best, all you can and then only say, "I tried."
For so long, and after countless times of hearing people cry out their relationship problems one by one, again and again... please listen to yourself, and make something happen.
Walk the talk. Let actions come after your words.
If you know something is about to happen or did happen, then do something about it, don't just, "Oh, well." WTF. Never judge something before its' time. You never know what might come out of it.
People like that just get on my friggin nerves.
And I respect people who could always take the first move, to do whatever.
So far, only one caught my eye. So far la. It's you.


I will say it again,
"Relationships is and will be complicated."
Fix yourself, then fix the relationship.

Don't judge.

Awakening

I just had this sudden urge to write something down.
but, my mind is so filled with words now, I don't know which to say.

Just watched Underworld : Awakening.
Good movie, blood here and there.
Kate Beckinsale... uh oh, you're hawt.
I don't know, if it's the accent, your fair skin, or the eyes.
Gosh, you make one good vampire.

Always had this interest in myths and legends, whether it may be Greek, Roman, European or whatever, still damn interesting to me. ;D

In the movie she said, "Just yesterday I was this close to the man I love, and went to sleep. I woke up 12years later finding out that he's not longer alive. I'm not cold hearted, just heartbroken."

I bet we have this moments where we push people away, and sometimes, not them physically, but emotionally as well.
We detach ourselves from people, trying to figure out ourselves.

Can't really take the whole blame right? '
Cause we let emotions and feelings take over.
We're still human, eh.

Frank Ocean's song, 'We All Try', part of the lyrics says,
"I still believe in man,
A wise one asked me why
Cause I just don't believe we're wicked
I know that we sin, but I do believe we all try."

We all try to be good, but somehow somewhat, we fail time and time again.
and we take it into our hearts, and never learn from our mistakes,
but I believe in people, that we forgive and somewhere along time, we forget.
It's easier if we have someone to share the burden with too.

So look up into the sky,
And see that all is calm,
Wave the old you goodbye
For the worst is yet to come.

Trust me, there are far more bad things ahead of us,
but step by step, we conquer.
I conquered.

Not all, but I will, eventually.

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It's Complicated

This movie, "Relationship Status", is in fact, a Malaysian movie.

It's about different kinds of relationships, but not all types of relationships.

It's kinda like "Love Actually", like how all the characters relates to one another.

The movie was shot with a Canon 5D Mark II.
Which is supposedly an 'AWESOME GOOD-ASS' camera.

but, always a 'BUT', the cameraman, sucked. 

The focus was way over controlled, some scenes were blur, it was way, wayyyy, WAYYYY, too shaky. 

Okay, now that the details are done with, on with the movie itself.

SPOILER ALERT.

This guy is in an open relationship, without him even knowing it, that the girl he's hooking up with, had sex with this married guy that made him had a divorce. And the divorcee's wife is friends with a girl that works in the same office as the first guy, and her husband is hooking up with the divorcee'. And a Chinese guy's parents doesn't approve his son for being in a relationship, with a girl so 'open'. And the first guy's boss' husband passed away, and doesn't know how to cope with it.

What makes it all so much more interesting, is that they're all somehow mutually related on Facebook.

It's kinda confusing without watching the movie, but yea, that summarizes it up.

For me, the movie really had a lot of good scenes, like emotional touching scenes. 

The actors and actresses had their good and bad scenes too.

but in the end, the storyline was good and made sense.

Nothing was overrated. 

Best line in the the movie, for me, 

"Take the relationship status on Facebook as an example. We can tell the entire world, we're single, in a relationship, engaged, married, divorced, widowed, whatever we want. We can even tell the world, it's complicated. But here's my question, 'Isn't every relationship complicated?'. "

To all my friends, who's in a relationship now, please remember and know for sure, that every relationship IS and WILL BE complicated. 

'Cause every relationship is different.
You can't take what you see in the movies or in reality and compare them to yours, 'cause it's different.
Accept the differences, and make your way around it. 

Don't make the mistake of quitting when you haven't tried everything.
You just might have the best relationship in the world. Who knows?  

You can be whoever you want, but be real. Every relationship is complicated. 

Just Words

Always breaking promises.
Always not fulfilling my words.

This is when promises becomes, empty meaningless words.

It gives hope and happiness for a moment, but after awhile…

I’m sorry. I broke all my promises.

Big or small, it doesn’t matter ‘cause it still didn’t come to fruition.

I will make it up to you.

Do you remember your most precious promise?

Bye.

Rushed down to see you lying down,
Called your name,
But you made not a sound,
Now its never the same.

Rest In Peace grandma.

Nothing is worst than death?

Mission I.M.Possible

Went to watch MI4, again, with my brother.
Just because he hasn’t seen it yet, cause of his all-so-busy schedule.
Well, he paid, so wtheck right?

This time round, to make the movie count, I paid a little more attention to the little things.
Like every scene has its loophole to the next, like hinting the thing.

There were some interesting scenes, here and there,
but what really caught me eye was, the ending.

He saw his wife, and he couldn’t take his eyes off her.

What kind of love is it, that you give your whole life and the one you love, just so that he/she can be safe?
And you would get the worst kind of treatment.
One of the best kind.

Could you remain silent, about the love you have, so that they can smile and live a better life without you. Hoping that they would eventually love you back.

Ethan Hunt, didn’t gave up on the mission, even when the missile launched, cause he knew his wife was where the bomb might hit.
He tried with all his blood, sweat and more blood, to make sure that she would be safe.
and like his teammate said, “This people don’t even know they were this close to being vaporized.”

He knew, and he made sure that didn’t happened.

We all have this love, silent love.
Think about it. We all do.

And it was a full moon tonight. Wished you saw it.

One of the few silent love I have. A.

Polite

We smile and nod to hide the pain, that could or would, eventually kill us.
Is it ego? Or is it politeness?

If it’s ego, it’s all about themselves and not wanting to humble down.
If it’s politeness, it’s about caring for another persons’ feelings more than themselves.

So do we cry ourselves to sleep just because we have something yet unsaid, but we leave it as it is, for the sake of being polite?
Or do we give the brutal truth, which could cost money, time, hurt and relentlessness, and be judged as ‘ego-ish’?

We should always do something that’s for the better good. But which good?
Yourself or others?
What if one weighed more than the other? Which would you choose?
To save a hundred now, or a million later?

But I guess, most of the time, we are more polite than the other.
We prefer smiles, rather than tears.
Honestly, who wants tears?

Sometimes, we’re just kinda dumb to choose the happy feelings that could last us a minute.
Sometimes. Lol

Just smile and nod. It’s better for everyone. :D

I would smile, to keep you smiling. 

What A Start

 2012.

Nothing much happened for me.
It was like a transition from a second to the next.
Didn’t had that ”Woohoo, it’s a new year,” kinda thing.

Maybe it’s cause I imagined it differently before.

Less than a week down, and 2 people I know passed away.
What a way to start the year eh?

To sit there, to watch and listen to their loved ones mourn and cry over them.
It hurts even just to be there.
The kind of love that you can share, but just not as much equally.

We miss the things that has been done.
We regret the things that hasn’t been done.
We are only human.

Even when I was your shoulder to cry on,
it still wasn’t you.

and R.I.P. Jay, my friend.