Last but not least

A day started filled with emotions, or is it feelings?
Either one, conflicted within an individual was, sadness, jealousy, anger and happiness.
How can everything coincide in one,
well, it just did.
Only one friend knows why. ;)

After everything, what is, just is.
Can't change what's already there.
To use force on something, would just eventually retaliate, one way or the other.
"Let it be." - John Lennon.

Learned something in class, to achieve both authenticity and accuracy is very hard.
A fact has to have those two elements to prove it as a fact.
This theory works for memories too.
How authentic and accurate a memory can be?
Cause to interpret the memory itself, the memory is tampered with excessive imagination and post-memories.

Mannnnnn, this is getting to serious.
but yeah, what I'm trying to get through is,
Living in your memories won't help you get anywhere, because it's your interpretation of the memory, and even if you successfully describe it word-for-word, that experience/memory is over.
Time to really move one Mr.Lee. ;)

but in your dreams, that's where things happen un-tampered, because your unconscious is in control.
"Dreams, that's where I have to go, to see your face." - Gavin Degraw

I'm sorry my friend, I have my reasons to do what I did, but I was afraid that even if I tell you, it's gonna be just another excuse. sorry.

Hopes, dreams, failures, goals, success and life,
in the end, what is, just is.


I'm happy for you. Really am. :)


This would be my last post, I think.
Thank y'all for actually taking your time to read this fullofrubbishfromthisaverageguy.
It's the second reason why I continued writing here.
Wherever you are, thanks~


Enough of writing, time to read. keke.

The first, is a hidden discourse in the text.

Dreams vs. Dreams.

There are two kinds of dreams.

One, it comes in your sleep.
The other, it comes in your future.

For awhile now, I've been missing out on both.

I could neither dream, or had a dream.

I was sleeping late all the time, and the more tired you are, the less chances you are to dream in your sleep. That is why, sometimes I would just hit the sack a wee bit early.
Just to dream.

'Cause sometimes dreams are just a sense of 'escape'. 

Where you just want to run away from reality, and enjoy in a world where anything can happen.

Literally anything can happen. 

As adventurous as sailing the seven seas, or just spending a quiet spring day with a significant other.

There are also dreams, that just might scare the jibbers outta ya.

but other than the scare dreams, dreams that take your breath away, are the dreams.

It's quite interesting really, to actually know the fact, that the power of our minds are just unimaginable. 

We can do so much with it, even when we are asleep.

Literally anything can happen.  

and the difference between dreaming, and conscious imagination is, that dreams take you to places you least expect it. 

You could even find yourself surprised to what's happening. Thinking, "Could this ever happen?"

Only once, have I woke because I realized that the dream was way too good to be true. 

Last year, was the year that I realized what my dream really is.

Filmography and production.
Production not only in the film industry, but the music industry as well.
I've never heard anyone accomplish both so well, don't know if it's possible to achieve two.

but I will achieve at least one.

And at the moment, film is the one with more leverage.
Having a crew with some friends to do film, is just such an amazing thing, but lately, we haven't been as active, or as passionate, or as close as we were before.

but I wont let those dudes pull me down. No never.

Until I finish this 4dreadedyearsofsufferingandloserishcourse, I will still try my best in finishing it rather well. 

but till then, film and production have to wait.
This 4 years, is a test I would say. A test of dream.

How strong is my dream?

To those who really have a dream in mind, I urge you,

If you really believe with all your heart, soul and mind, that THAT is your dream. Go for it, if you have the chance. I have a dream, but limited chance.

I envy your blessings to be given a second chance.

Sometimes, we're meant to fail for the sake of a better chance in the future.

“I have a dream.” – Martin Luther King

Both in reality or a different state,

I dream you.

Dream to save the world today, myself tomorrow. 

2am

It's past 2am now.
and I can't sleep, I can't stop..
so I just thought that I would just write.
It always seemed to help, somehow.


I guess it all started a few days ago?
When 2AM had their comeback.
They released their new album, and was kinda anticipating for it,
cause I've watched WGM, so Jo Kwon is like an automatically like for his character, which include Seul Ong cause he's always with them. LOL.
Then Dream High 2 featured Jin Woon, which he's doing quite good, for a rookie actor.

As expected from a ballad group, they would normally produce slower tempo songs.
Happy or sad, it's still rather calm and soothing to listen.
It also has the very orchestra feel to it. Which is rather awesome. ;)
It's the kind of songs you would want to hear when it rains, when you're just waiting for class or something.
Was kinda hoping that their comeback MV would be a lot more joyful?
Since all their past MV's are like crying and leave and lost and the mushy stuffffsssss.

It starts with him walking into a room, where he meets this old man. And as he explains how he has been feeling for the past year, the old man takes our a glass piano piece and turns it.
You then see him sitting by the table, with letters and pictures of him and her together. As his looks through it one by one, the pictures and letters turns into blank pieces of paper. He then tries to save 'em, but the more he tried, the faster it spreads. He then sat in despair, till he saw the cupboard door that he didn't open. Once opening it, he realizes that she was in it, then he brings he to a seat. He tried to hug her, but then she too turned into pieces of paper. Trying to bring himself up, he started walking, but his first step turned him into pieces of paper too. The MV ends with the old man, walking out from the shop alone.

I guess, the pieces of paper represented memories. Memories are kept through pictures, letters, and other physical evidence. His memory of her was slowly fading as time went by, but he didn't want it to happen because, he fears that he would then somehow lose her at the same time too.
Whether he tried or not, it slowly faded. Then he realized the cupboard, which represented the remaining bit of his memories. Sometimes, memories aren't just all physical, but it's in our mind somewhere up in there. She represented memories, and she was so real, so vivid, that he could somehow reach out to her and hold her. But time still ticks, and she too turned into a memory.
He decided to walk again, because that's all he could have done. When you hit rock bottom, there's no way out, but up. And that's what he did. You don't go digging the hole deeper and deeper. In his first step, he already made it through. He became memory itself.

The thing that got me thinking was, "If you forget something, could it mean that it might as well mean it didn't happen?" Memories exist through our experience of something. So how could there be experience, if we forgotten our memories?
but I guess not, cause if you forget, it doesn't mean it didn't happen.
Like we don't remember being born, but it did happen. We just don't remember it.

but I wouldn't choose to forget.
Is that the problem?
Who would want to forget,
the best time of their lives,
the decisions they constantly make to stay,
the one, that just is.

or is it better to live with Artificial Memories?
Always trying to make the dreams turn into reality.

I'm scared.

Life's too short

Glee.
A friend of mine gave 14 episodes of the 3rd season.
In the beginning, I was just more interested in the various song renditions they would do.
They always cover songs so uniquely, and introduce new songs, which is kinda COOL.
And the way they mash-up the songs? SO FREAKING.. GENIUS!
Envy their talent.

but what made me really hooked into it a bit, was the different issues it addresses.
I.e. Friendship, equality, honesty, respect, discrimination and music.

Out of all the episodes, the episode 14, 'On My Way'.
What it thought me was, life's way too short for any of us to actually predict what could happen.
We can never be sure of the future, even if we have big dreams.

Do you think, you could ever live tomorrow, like its your last?
Say what you need to say.
Do what you need to do.
Forget the pain, focus on the joy.
Give all the love you can.

To really do all of those, seem kinda easy, isn't it?
All you need to do, is just be honest.

Can your heart go all out, filled with honesty and truth within?
I don't know for you, but for me, it's kinda hard.
but I did say what I had to say, and the rest, was kinda left up to destiny.

What Glee had thought me, live life.
Sounds easy, sounds like a stupid thing to say,
but, are you really?

Don't count how many years you lived, but the life in those years.
"Life's too short, to care at all." - Cough Syrup by Young The Giant.

Say, Do, Live, Love all you need, before it's too late.
You're really beautiful, in your ways.