Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Leap Year Blues


29th of February 2012.
Leap year.
Comes every 4years.
Don’t really think I will post anything here, in 4years time. lol.

The week started off quite rather.. ermm, blue?

QUESTION. When is the first day of the week?
Sunday or Monday?
Something worth debating about.

Even if it’s Monday, I would say my week started on Sunday, night
Is it about letting something out, but not heard better?
or is it the opposite?
Well, I got heard, and it feels.. kinda good, relieved.
Guess we’re all cool now, and a lil’ bit awkward. lol.

Went to uni, with my head held high, neverdying dreams.
Then found out that I might not have a chance to go study overseas. Not even a semester.
Unless, I really step up my game this sem, and get things going and done.
Literally spoilt my whole freaking day.
Really tried to be optimistic, but the fact that I kinda failed indirectly just killed me.
Well, boooohoooo on me.

Then started Korean class again, and this time, imma get things right too.
No more fooling around, but to take it more seriously.

Guess I’ll remember today even more, cause Big Bang’s comeback.
Don’t really love ALL their songs, but definitely ALMOST all. Thereisadifference.
Was researching on their updates, and found lyrics to their songs, old and new.
and I REALIZE SOMETHING. Most of their songs are about breakups, but… in a happy swag-ish way.
So many more reasons to love them.

Take a moment to stop doing whatever you’re doing. And just relax.
Let the only thing on your mind be wondering of what I’m about to say.
Empty yet?

It’s better to close your eyes, while doing this, but then you can’t read. So read it first, then do it.

“Close your eyes. Think of a super duper dark place. You know you’re inside somewhere, but just not really. So you decide to just walk straight. Common sense will lead you somewhere if you just keep walking ahead. Then you realize a white little stream of light. You’re in the way of it. Reaching it, it’s a door. And when you open it, a flash of light just explodes. Who’s the first person you see? Then you think why, and what does it mean. “

Just the sort of thing I normally do when I’m bored. It makes me think of something. Reminisce, appreciate, regret, remember or forget.




"I just hope she will be great. To be at her side to support and help her. I don't know whether this is like or not." - JB

You're always on the other side.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Kakao

Back from a holiday I wouldn't say I regret.
Yes. I ate a lot.
Yes. I traveled a lot.
Yes. I met some new friends.
Yes. I made some stronger friendships.
Yes. I spent a lot of money.
Yes. I got to see...

Thought it was the end, then suddenly..
Proven wrong, at least for that few seconds.
It was worth it.
Wished time would just stop, so I could do what I want.

That was indeed a stupid move.
Yes. It. Is.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

A Tuesday


Valentine’s Day.

Exactly one year from today, I walked into a dark cold classroom, on one hand holding a mini hotdog, the other a pack of tissue paper.
Everything was exactly as planned.

I quickly finished off the hotdog and used a tissue paper, as an excuse to open the pack.

As you slowly explained what was so interesting about your day so far, I secretly rolled the tissue paper, and before you sentence ended, BAM, a white, dead, ugly looking rose made from a tissue paper.

Passed it to you, like it was so coincidentally made.
Luckily the class was dark enough to cover my face, it was literally burning.
Cool over shy. Yea... LOL

Well, that was last year.
This year, I deliberately chose this date to leave the country, because... WHY NOT? Right?
A long holiday before the hectic university starts.
Gahhh.. hate.my.course. nuffsaid.

Oh, and I think Valentine’s day has its benefits.
Always thought it’s a lousy day event.

One of ‘em is, any past arguments or miscommunication of any sort, can be resolved with roses, bears and chocolates. Yes, the triple combo gifts.
The other would be, an excuse to spend a ‘lil more money for that special someone. ‘Cause some people never wanna spend money on they partner, or their partner never want money to be spent on them, so this could help.
And, it’s like any other day, a reminder. That you should cherish and love the ones you care for. Spouse, partner, family or friends.
To all the couples out there, good luck and I wish you have a good day ahead.
Forget about all your problems of the past, put it away, and just live the moment with the one you love.
At least, just for today.

As for me…
It’s a SAD day.
Single Awareness Day. (SAD)

‘Cause tonight I’m feeling like an astronaut,
Sending SOS, from this tiny box,
To the lonely people that the world forgot,
Are you out there?
‘Cause you’re all I’ve got.
-Astronaut by Simple Plan.

Even in that dark room, I still could see those eyes.

White - Purity, Innocence, Silence, Secrecy, Humility, Heavenly, "I'm worthy". 






Saturday, February 11, 2012

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Ice Cold Eyes?

He was holding back his tears, a single tear. Looking away from our view of his eyes.
The guys and I could see what he was going through, cause he was stopping in between his sentences to catch his breath.
We all looked away, cause we know that he's a man that wants and has the 'cool' image. 
but then, as time passed, I realized that a single tear, fell from his left eye. 
And that was when I knew, he needed our support, as friends, as his buddies. 
The more he spoke and explained, the more it fell. 

How could every word he said, be.. so similar to how I felt?
I was so shocked, that he, my friend too, was going through the same thing as I was.
The 'useless' feeling came over me as I was sitting there with him, and repeating, "It's okay." 
He knows and I know, that things ain't okay at all, but it was okay to be open with friends you could trust.

The eyes are the windows to the soul.

That's what they usually say when they can see what the person is feeling just by looking into their eyes.
Whether it be wet or dry, the question is, "Is it possible? To really see a persons' feelings and emotions, just by looking into their eyes?"

What catches my attention from every single individual is their face, their eyes in particular.
If I ever had a choice to look at a part of a persons' features, it would be their eyes.
It's something about them eyes. It's just.. fascinating, in a way. Like, "WOOAHH, look at his/her eye.!!"

I believe every pair of eyes are different.
Well, I can't be sure, since I never actually seen 7billion sets of eyes. 
but so far, it's different for everyone.

A lot of eyes have caught my attention, guys and girls alike, but none stand out like yours do.
Killer eyes
Just something about it. Idk what, but the eyes... GAHH, err-may-zeen. Totally different.

I remember tears streaming down your face when I said, "I'll never let you go." When all those shadows almost killed your light. I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone." But all that's dead and gone and past tonight."
-Safe&Sound by Taylor Swift ft Civil Wars.

Remember?

Broken promises remembered, the feeling makes you kinda feel like a loser, for not keeping it.
A friend argued with me that if I broke a promise unintentionally, then i shouldn't really feel guilty. I just prefer not to thing that way, 'cause if you really mean it, you would actually take extra steps and make reminders or whatnot to make it happen. You're innocent, only if a house drops on you, or if... err... death?
Well, that's my take on that argument. 
Less promises it is then.

Okay, back to the topic.
Question. If you had to pick a part of your body, which you COULD and COULDN'T live without, which would it be?
Mine would be, eyes, for both.
I could live without it because, we live in this world that perceives beauty or good and wrong in such a way, that it has blinded our view of the true vision that it is. Tho whom is these standards according too? 
Why do I need to 'like' something I see? 
For an example, peoples' behaviour, attitude, characteristics, beliefs, skin color, religion, fashion sense, or whatever. I shouldn't need to judge them before knowing them. 
As long as our mind is in the right moral state, we should know what's acceptable or not.
'Colorblind', is the way to see.
Went to watch 'Wicked the Musical'. IT WAS AWESOME.
out of everything else, one scene touched me the most. It was..
Glinda received a present from her grandma, a long black hat. She didn't like it, and her 'friends' asked her to give it to someone she hates. And she immediately thought of Elphaba(the witch). She gave it to her, out of 'kindness' and asked her to wear it to the dance, and Elphaba accepted it without exception, happily.
As the dance started, Glinda's teacher decided to teach her, just because Elphaba insisted on it. She gave up her spot for Glinda, so that she can learn sorcery. Then she felt so bad, that she treated Elphaba so badly, she decided to be a friend to her, from then onwards.
Elphaba entered the hall, and everyone started laughing at her, because of her outfit, and her inability to dance. Then next thing that happened, was the most amazing thing.
Glinda went to her and danced the same dance that Elphaba failed to do, and made it into 'the dance of the night'. Everyone else accepted her as she is, after that.
That was when their friendship, changed from enemies, to the best of friends.
Like those wise ass say, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder."



I couldn't live without my eyes is because, I love scenery, colors, buildings(those old ones.. and the pyramid?), the moon, and eyes itself.
To no be able to see all of that? DAYUM, how do I experience life to its fullest?
Tip my hat to the people who had lost their vision for whatever reasons, the fact that you still fight and survive through it, it's awesome enough.nuffsaid.

And I guess, everything can be beautiful to anyone, cause we all have different taste in music, art, culture, tradition and everything else.
Yet again, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder."
*hate it when they're always right.* lol.

Was I wrong when I stared into those eyes?
I saw... 
It doesn't matter now does it? Cause all that's dead and gone and past tonight.

One heck of a roller coaster ride.
And I find myself more brave to ride it again, well, only if the opportunity presents itself.

A sentence, muttered,
A moment, shattered,
Tears out of control,
Both felt it at the soul.




Oh, and tonight was the last full Moon. 

Friday, February 3, 2012

Too Much?


So little to say, but so much time.
Despite my empty mouth, the words are in my mind.

Too much of a good thing.
Dreams, happy moments, weird miss calls.

Can never have to much of a good thing, cause it might turn out bad.
An appropriate balance is required to keep everything in place.
Reality is what it is.

Out of the blue pop ups. ;)
miss it.



Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Did You?

Ever had a song, that when you listen to the lyrics, or find out what it means, you immediately click to it.
Like the melody and the lyrics, sync with one another.
It's not that you're addicted to it, or how the lyrics goes on a loop in your mind, 
but more of, "Hey, this is what I'm going through."
or, "This is exactly what I'm feeling."
or however it may be, hope you catch my drift. 

Well, there is this one song for me recently.
'I Won't Give Up', by Jason Mraz.

Right from the first line, till the last.
It might not be every line,
but I can definitely relate it to me.

The song can be for someone who's in a relationship, and one who isn't.
One would say,
"Whatever happens, good or bad, I won't give up."
The other would say,
"Whatever happened, through the good and bad, I won't give up."

Well, that's my take on the song.

To a friend that I might have judged way before I gave him time to show it, I'm sorry. I will support you through and through, but I will be brutally honest about everything. If I offend you, you deserve it. Okay, that sounded bad, lol. But yeah, please try all your best, all you can and then only say, "I tried."
For so long, and after countless times of hearing people cry out their relationship problems one by one, again and again... please listen to yourself, and make something happen.
Walk the talk. Let actions come after your words.
If you know something is about to happen or did happen, then do something about it, don't just, "Oh, well." WTF. Never judge something before its' time. You never know what might come out of it.
People like that just get on my friggin nerves.
And I respect people who could always take the first move, to do whatever.
So far, only one caught my eye. So far la. It's you.


I will say it again,
"Relationships is and will be complicated."
Fix yourself, then fix the relationship.



Don't judge.