smile.

all it took was one smile. =)

Goddamnyourecute

Pain?

“Faith, have you ever felt really really sad, that you cried?”
“Yes”
“Why?”
“Cause I lost my toy”

The innocence of being a kid.
How I wish I’m a kid now.
That all my troubles and hurt wouldn’t be as painful.
“We never get what we want and we want what we cannot get.” – Friend of mine.

Pain itself is another factor that plays in every one of us.
Seeing you in pain, pushes me into this corner.
I care, but the more I do, the more I’m further away.

It kills to me to see you hurt.
But what’s the point when...
‎"Everybody falls sometimes,
Gotta find the strength to rise,
From the ashes and make a new beginning."
- Kutless

I wanna be a kid again, when my problem is never bigger than what show is on next.
When fun, joy and friendship matters most.
To be naïve of the world I’m living in.
To do what I please without anyone judging.

To be myself once again.
“The more we pull people from faraway near, the further the near ones go.” - Communication Reader.

IMO

Monkey,

Out of all, I like ‘monkey’,
Cause at times, you’re super cheeky,
Not knowing you too can be silly,
All surprising and tricky,
Giving me teasers that make me go crazy,
Even when you’re complaining you’re lazy,
As stubborn as you are daily,
This is what you mean to me.

Sending those hearts once in a while,
Making me laugh and smile,
Seeing me acting all cool,
But you’ll always see me a fool.

Making you smile isn’t easy,
To catch it once, you can call me lucky,
Twice, maybe its destiny,
Cause you’re my honeybee.

Walking away never regretting,
Cause it's with you I'm spending,
Time, money, there are just material things,
But the experience keeps me forever learning.

Time is of the essence,
That's what they all tell me,
Never forgetting your presence,
Especially on the sixteenth of February.

If you see us in the future, even just one bit... I would take that chance,
but you didn't, and not want to prolong 'this' anymore.
It's for the best I guess.
-Smiles(

:

Whole Time

I didn’t realize till I focused.
With my eyes open, I was staring into open space.
And it was all you. All… you.

constant

onethingthatwillneverchangeisthemoon.

damnitthemoonisbrighttonight.

constantlyonandoff.

appearforawhilethendissappearforanothermonthorso.

thenbackwithanawesomeview.

damnthefreakingmoon.

catchingmybreathwhilewalking.

guessitsgettingmoreserious.

fuckingmissyou

Doc

Doc said that I’m sick. Not really sick, but just not healthy.
A thing, that in the long run might come back to haunt me.

Reasons I don’t freaking understand, and why I am how I am.

Cnousfed, muthafucka.

But I’ll take what comes my way.

Thanks doc… really awesome timing.

7hours of nap. fml...

Finally

I’m not how I am now six years ago.
I was so different, that the experiences I faced and had, I would never wish on anyone.
I was living in my own world, being myself.
Not saying that being myself was a bad thing, but I didn’t see how people view me.
I’m not self-conscious enough to see that I was annoying rather than entertaining.
They were laughing at me, not with me.
That was my biggest mistake.

I’ve been on my own ever since,
never asking anything, never complaining.
Thinking that what I’m going through is a phase in life or maybe, I was just plain patient.

Mom, I love you for understanding where I stand. Life has been hard for me when I was younger.
Gettin’ bullied, pushed around and laughed at. It’s the past, but hardly forgotten.
At least now you know, I’ve been trying to stay strong for very long.

Kudos to moms.